UMMM...... WE SHALL SEE.... 2-28-19
Mar 1, 2019
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everybody welcome to Thursday oh my gosh
so let me grab a drink I have to start
drinking now until my appointment I have
to have a full bladder
they said he said I needed a full
bladder
to do my ultrasound that is where I'm
headed right now is my ultrasound so I
hope everybody is having a wonderful
start to your guyses day I am feeling a
lot better I took a shower today
yesterday I didn't even take a shower
until last night like clearly I just it
really got me good my lungs still feel a
little bit tight but I've been doing my
inhaler and that has tremendously helped
I will say that so anyways I took a rest
I'm so thankful that you guys were
understanding when it came to the part
about me not going live tonight I just
honestly I are sorry live yesterday I
just the whole the thought about going
live just oh I just I you know when I go
live with you guys my whole thing about
it is going in having fun and you know
talking and get you knowing one another
and
you know I just I don't feel like I
would have now if you guys think I'm
looking in the camera now no I'm looking
at the camera right now I do a lot of
back looking in my rear view mirror
which my camera is right under my mirror
so like right now I'm looking in my
rearview mirror and I do that a lot -
just keep contact with all the cars
around me that's just how I've always
driven that's how I was taught to drive
and I've been driving for many many many
many years and so because of that it
might indicate that I'm looking in my
phone or like my camera zoom thing but
i'm really not i'm looking at my layers
so anyways i just wanted to talk
verifying that the way you guys knew
that i wasn't technically looking always
at my camera i think sometimes you guys
think i am and i'm really not i'm
looking at my mirrors so anyways i just
wanted to thank you for being
understanding for my not going live last
night however i am planning to go live
tonight I am so excited I can't wait to
talk with you guys and chitchat and
maybe you know give you guys a little
bit of adjusting my mirrors now they're
crazy be able to update you guys on kind
of what's going on and things like that
with my medical part of issues after my
doctor's appointment I need to go to
Michael's craft store because I didn't
go yesterday I just I just couldn't go I
really just was not feeling good so
I am planning to go to Michael's and
then I need to go to Walmart as well to
grab some stuff and then I think today
I'm gonna try and at least bust out
probably 2 cups depending on my timing
that I have at least start one of my
cups and I have a shirt in a tote I have
to finish
so anyways I'm truly excited about all
of this good stuff that's coming my way
and so yeah I will I won't check in with
you at the doctor's office because at
this appointment when they send the
paper to remind you of your appointment
it makes sure to say no cell phone video
taping anything like that which most of
the time not syndicating because most
people that go
Bono's a most but a lot of people that
go for ultrasounds are expecting you
know mothers and fathers and so they
like to record which it was cool because
with my doctor the doctor I have now
when I was pregnant with Omar he let us
record every one of the ultrasounds so
that we have him on videotape for
ourselves but also to go back and be
able to send them to Ali's mom so that
was really nice because you know she
didn't get to be here for his part so it
makes it nice
anyway so my water but most of the time
especially in ultrasound facilities they
ask that you don't record so I won't be
able to vlog while I'm in there which is
totally cool I I really don't think I'm
in it well I won't get any answers today
anyways no matter what because it's just
a whole ultrasound technician and
usually they don't share any information
so anyways I'm going to concentrate on
driving for now and then I will check in
with you guys after my appointment and
then fill you in with my matter that way
okay so I just checked in and we were
just quietly waiting while we like I
have a whole bunch of people here just
sitting here we're going to be called
back for the ultrasound so anyways it's
quiet here today there's like nobody
it's quiet anyways um but I will check
it with you guys as soon as I get out I
just wanted to say hello and I'm here
okie-dokie you guys I just got out of my
doctor appointment it wasn't that bad
like I really think that losing the
weight so far that I have has made a big
difference on how my body is acting
towards the towards how I'm being able
to do things because honestly like I it
wasn't that bad it really wasn't as bad
as I thought
so usually when they have to do my the
abdominal area they have to go under my
apron area which if you don't know what
an apron is an apron is the part of the
belly that kind of hangs well mine
really hangs makes specially was losing
weight it's rallying
so anyways with that it usually it would
tear and it was just a nasty mess
however today it was fine she pushed
hard and it really didn't hurt like I
was like well it's not weird so anyways
I was pretty happy about that and then
oh she had to do the internal ultrasound
and that one it didn't hurt when she put
in you know like when she went in but
then when she started pushing down on
like my bowels and all that I'm like Oh
pressure but it's okay you know and I
said that's a fact so anywho I am now on
my way to Michael's I came out okay you
guys get this so I go in and it was
totally fine weather-wise
it was looking great nothing wrong at
all I come out it is snowing
oh great no I have no gas yeah snowy and
hot mess so I called all day and I'm
like baby it's Mao and he's like come
and pick me up and I will take you and I
was just like I don't want you to have
to do it if you don't want to I know you
don't feel like getting out right now
and he's like no it's okay I'll take you
and bye at the end I just told him I
said you know I'll go to Michaels
because you know right now it's not
really snowing it's just more rain I was
like so I'll just go to Michael's if it
gets really bad or starts released
picking up on snow then I will just call
it good and I will I'll come home so
he's like okay he's like you know it's
okay if I need to take you and I was
like no it's it's okay I was like I I
think I'll be okay so anyways yes that
is what does up with money and the lady
that did my ultrasound she is so nice oh
my gosh I think she's done my ultrasound
before I think she actually did where my
ultrasounds when I was pregnant so she's
just she's a sweetheart and I took some
pictures I know I'm probably not
supposed to but I took some pictures of
my of my internal areas that she left up
on the computer so I was like snap snap
I was like I just won't say anything but
anywho yeah so I am on my way to
Michael's now and then from there we
shall see if I get to go to my Walmart
if I don't go to Walmart I I'm gonna
have to stop and get gas because I am
like
my gas light just came on so yeah a good
times good times my husband leaves me
with no girls anyways all right you guys
I will check in with you in a little bit
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okay guys so I just now I'm getting to
Michael's it is Oh
blustery out and I'm dressed for you
know springtime ya know a me anyways I
am going to come in here and see if I
can find their epoxy
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anyways see this is right about those
flowers from there's already anyways
kind of in a hurry
just because I need to get that stuff
and do before the floor before the floor
before the ground gets bad but I love
these things
look
if I was oops if I was rich I vital but
you know that is how things work oh
here's Clarence
let's see anything good here
good stuff sometimes a dog
I think that's
so I am sitting here waiting they're
looking for the epoxy because they
didn't have any in the bag I'm like oh
no but they are looking for it now so
now I'm just standing here waiting
hopefully they have it but I did get a
whole bunch of cool paints and stuff I'm
so excited I couldn't find any more of
their glitters the only glitters that I
could find were they weren't once I was
looking for so anywho after this then I
will head over to Walmart and get the
rest of my stuff hopefully I can hurry
it because I know I have my life going
on tonight at 5 and I can't be late for
you guys and it did stop snowing thank
goodness so it should be an easy
transaction to get over there
look at all these pretty things is so
pretty
okay so I just left Michaels and they do
not have the epoxy she's like well you
can go to Corvallis or Tiger I'm like I
am NOT driving almost an hour and a half
or an hour now no no no Amy will just
order it online why this parking lot
it's the hardest parking lot to get out
of um but anyways yeah that was a little
bit of a hiccup but it's okay I have a
little bit of epoxy I mean I have enough
to probably do one of my tumblers and
then get the other ones going oh my gosh
you guys I am so excited to try this new
technique that I've got going so I
really hope that well heart is not
cheaper on the paint that I got but if
it is it is I mean I'll learn my lesson
and not shop at Michael's as much if
it's really that expensive but anyways I
am now headed to Michael's art Walmart
it is 2:30 so you know my doctor's
appointment for about an hour I'm trying
to just get all this done so that once
it's done it's done you know I don't
have to continue to keep messing with
all the stuff and it's you know when you
start a business it's like you have to
start somewhere you know and that's what
I was trying to explain to like Ollie is
that you know it's a lot of getting a
supplies and you know trying to build up
my what do you want to say build up my
inventory you know and it's important to
have lots of glitter and paints and
whatever else it is that I am going to
do on my tumblers and so you know for me
it's like I have to think of all these
things and so I feel like I'm spin spin
spin spin spending right now but it's
all directed towards of course my well I
think of my word my business and it's I
mean ultimately it's going to benefit us
it's just you know trying to get
everything together so anyways I am
going to grab me a little bit of lunch
really quick because it is going on 2:30
and all I have had today is some tea and
that is it so I am oh I am extremely
hungry and this lady can like eat a
horse right now not really but you know
it could happen if you're a hungry
person no but anyways I am going to
really quickly I don't know why in the
world I just did all of that turning
around for absolutely nothing
anyways I'm going to grab me a little
something to eat really quick so I can
get on to Walmart finish up what I need
to do and then go home so I will check
in with you guys in one day
all right all right you guys I just got
done with Walmart like let me tell you
that that was a adventure hmm luckily
when I walked in they had a cart and I
did go in the cart because I knew I had
a lot walking around to do and he didn't
want to exert my lungs more than I have
to
and I have an hour before I go live with
you guys so excited anyways um I am
going to I'm heading home right now I'm
gonna get ready for my life and I think
that is it I got I got three more
tumblers and three more tumblers I got
some more paint
I got metallic paint you guys oh that's
so sided see how this is gonna work
um but anyway so yeah I am just like
anywho I probably won't check in with
you guys until after my life
because once I get home you know life
goes crazy you know something that I
noticed today when I was at Walmart so
when I got ready to check out I don't
know if this is like I never watched the
news you guys I'm really bad about it
so maybe have something been coming for
a while and of course you know left Phil
day me over here just doesn't know but
we have no closet beds like it's clear
paper bags
and let me tell you
it is not as easy to carry out things
with no handles so yeah that was not fun
at all
to say the least and the thing I liked
about plastic bags I reuse them for like
trash and stuff it's like really come on
come on house you clearly here I'm doing
much better anyways so I am now on my
way home and I'm gonna get ready for the
live as I've said like three times in a
row sure you guys are like yeah I mean
we got the drift um but anyways so I
will check it with you guys probably
after my life because I'm gonna be
trying to race through and get things
situated so I can get ready for my nap
so anyways I'll see you in a little bit
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how old are you you're tell me again how
old are you right yeah that's how old
your brother is you're three killed
tonight thank you for everybody that was
on my life I appreciate it so much I
love love love being able to just
chitchat and get to know everybody it's
always such an amazing thing to be able
to do and so thank you and for anybody
that miss alive don't feel bad I'm gonna
be going live every Thursday 5:00 p.m.
Pacific Standard Time and I think what
I'm gonna do because Seattle sapphire
had mentioned last night when we were on
our lives she's like well what's the
topic for tonight and I guess I really
never thought about doing topics
for the lives but I think that that's
what I'm going to be doing is every
Thursday we will have a new topic that
we're going to talk about so I'm really
excited to do that because I think that
that is a great way to not just not get
to know each other but we get to
interact in different topics so I'm
gonna be doing topic Thursday's so every
Thursday will be a different topic and I
think that I I'll put it in the
description
each life on Thursdays I'll put it in
the life the what the topic is going to
be about so that way then if you guys
you know if you get on and you're like I
don't feel like talking about that topic
right then you don't even have to come
in unless you want to see this um
anyways it was a great life though I
truly truly truly truly appreciated it
um
I am so sorry that I properly kind of
had to get off I just all of a sudden
just wasn't feeling good I ended up
going to bed kind of early last night
after I got off live um I just I wasn't
filling it and I woke up this morning to
no voice still a little bit but not bad
but I drink some really hot tea with
honey and it kind of helped a little bit
but um you know it still is something
that I am dealing with a little bit but
it's okay I'm getting there I'm getting
better let's do our reading really quick
because I want to do this before we
forget estra decided to take my my
bookmark out so now I'm using a whatever
these things are called
I can't even think of the name of it no
card so I hope that I didn't pass over a
page that we were not I think that we've
done up to the 28th I think today is
January 29th it says don't deprive
yourself of the power of moving forward
because you're holding on to people who
were never meant to go along with you
let go and love and move on that is so
so true don't deprive yourself of the
power of moving forward because you're
holding on to people who are never meant
to go along with you let go and love and
move on you know it doesn't when you let
go of a relationship or you let go of a
person in general it doesn't mean that
you're doing it in a harsh way that
you're being what do you want to say you
know I know that there's been people you
know in my past that I've had to let go
of the relationship because a it wasn't
bringing good things out of me and be it
wasn't it wasn't nourishing the
relationship and so I had to let go in
love basically and say here I release
this relationship I don't think that
it's doing us me and that person any
good anymore and it's time to lose and I
really think that that could be used in
so many relationships whether it be a
friendship a family relationship
marriage relationships with your
children I mean adult children of course
you could not send away a child but I
mean it's sometimes you have to if if
you're the relationship with even your
child is bringing nothing good to the
table then you have to love them
to let them go and you know I have my
sibling my brother that I haven't had a
relationship with in four years and I
you know the relationship was bringing
nothing good for me or for him and you
know I had to love him enough to let him
go and that's just exactly what I did
and was it easy
absolutely not was it very hard of
course it was there were days of Tears
and you know wondering if I did the
right thing and you know time has gone
on
you know I now having children of my own
I know that the decision that I had to
make to let him go was the only
healthiest and right decision to make
but it doesn't mean that I don't love
him I love him and I always will love
him but sometimes relationships just are
not the type of relationship that you
need so you have to love that
relationship enough to say okay I'm done
and I can't go on but it doesn't mean
that you hate the person it doesn't mean
that you have ill feelings towards the
person it simply means you just don't
work and mesh anymore and it just
doesn't bring the best out of you or the
person and so those are relationships
that are healthy to say enough is enough
and so that reading is very good and it
hits so many because I think there is a
time when you really have to sit back
and and wonder you know are my
relationships all in healthy boundaries
are they all going the way that they're
supposed to go because sometimes that's
just not the way things work so anyways
what else was I going to say I have had
multiple messages you guys I am so sorry
because of being sick and
going live in doing all that I didn't
get a chance to you know go through and
answer any of my messages but I'm gonna
work on that today I have two cups that
I have to get done from orders so I am
going to be working on those today and I
have some finally that I have to get
done but I am so excited um I really am
gonna work hard on getting back into my
kind of my routine and my scheduling you
know it's been difficult I don't know
where my clipboard is keeping it around
me I don't know where it's at um it's
been kind of difficult to keep with my
yeah it's so cute I love you um it's
been hard keeping up with my routine and
my schedule because of just dealing with
being sick and you know life has been
just a little bit busy but you know what
schedule is the best thing and we're
gonna get back to that because I think
that's important however like I was
saying Thursday's are going to be our
day are nights that we go live so I will
be doing that I am going to change the
time though a little bit you guys I'm
really really really sorry
and this might kind of get in the way of
some people schedules and I apologize
but I am gonna have to switch my time to
six o'clock rather than five o'clock
five o'clock is right in the middle of
me trying to get my kids situated and
things like that
so I I think six o'clock and I will go
for only an hour on Thursday so from six
to seven will be my hour that I will be
live on every Thursday and like I said
it will be a topic a topic to live
unless I change things up then you know
but for right now I think topic lives
would be amazing I am so so so sorry for
how like again how the life went last
night dad wasn't home
to wrangle the kids and so they were
making their appearance very well heard
but hopefully with me scheduling changes
and doing things like that it will help
in the situation just a little bit and
hopefully we can get this worked out to
where oli is available to be home during
that time when I am live so that I could
pay more attention to you guys
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and yes about the messages I will be
working on getting back to messages
please have a little bit of me I am
really gonna be working hard though to
get back to everybody because I know
that everybody is anticipating Lee
waiting me for me to answer but
everybody back I will get back to you
I'm gonna work on that today as well as
I am working on my cups and things like
that but other than that that was my day
so I'm gonna close here because I really
need to go and get ready for my day yes
I am on to Friday morning but um I am
going to start my day so I will check in
with you guys in a little bit I know
that a lot of people have asked for me
to do a tutorial on how I do my cups I
am going to try and do that today
possibly but I'm going to do it in its
own separate video so I can just post
that up and that way then if there's
people that really don't care to watch
it they don't have to and if they want
to watch it they're more than welcome to
but I'll try and keep that part separate
so that way then it's not being too
overwhelming on my vlogs because you
know I understand some people are in for
it and some people are just like hey I
don't care to hear it and I'm totally
cool with that so anyways I hope
everybody had a wonderful wonderful
wonderful Thursday I did have my
ultrasound but we will be waiting for
results so other than that I have
nothing to update so I will close here
you guys and so I can restart my next
one I hope you guys had a wonderful
afternoon evening and that you guys
enjoyed the live as much as I did and I
will talk to you guys real soon sweet
dreams you guys